“Enough Procrastination let Me lead you to your destination” is what the Lord said to me, when I was struggling with moving forward. It was the same old same old and I was getting nowhere! I didn’t want to continue down the same path because it was not leading me anywhere, in fact I was stuck and didn’t know how to move forward.
When I left the coast of North Carolina a few years ago I didn’t know what I wanted to do with my life as a single 47 year old woman, I only knew for sure what I didn’t want to do. Long story short I knew I didn’t want to spend my time driving back and forth in the Atlanta traffic working another dead in job giving my time, energy and skill to another just to survive.
I have always had a longing for travel and often wished I had an occupation that would allow me to travel the world to experience different cultures. What I am to do there is not as clear as is my wanting to be there. Perhaps, this its my sense of adventure or maybe the call of missions on my life? Either way, it seems this is a desire of my heart that won’t loosen its grip. I’ve made a few trips over the years but have always had to raise support from others to make them happen.
I’ve done a little of this and a little bit of that through the years. I am a jack of all trades and a master of none and neither do I regret not spending twenty or so years of my life as a teacher, but sure would like to have the pension of that investment of time to live on now. I don’t posses the expertise and experience of 20+ years to be a consultant to earn a living. Believe me when I tell you its like starting all over as I struggle without any particular skill and very little money.
My life is full and busy with things I love but none of them are paying positions. I have great passion for serving in Tres Dias and Kairos communities, volunteering in food banks and for helping the poor. I have recently become ordained and spent time completing a unit of pastoral education to broaden my paradigms of serving others.
As time has passed these last few years I have pursued an idea the Lord has given me to build an online business that can be managed from anywhere in the world. This business, Your Fourth Day Connection offers resources to the help strengthen and build the 4th day community. It has been a two step forward, one step back process but He has provided the means to build the foundation for this little business (and that is another story in itself to be told another time) Now, I recognize that when I am stuck, procrastination sets in because I don’t know what to do or how to move forward.
When the Lord spoke these words to me “Enough procrastination, let Me lead you to your Destination,” it changed everything. I am seeing with new eyes on Him for instructions to continue to moving forward. His words have helped me to see differently and to understand the importance of the process of asking for instructions, believing He will give them to me and THEN doing what He tells me. Even though I have not yet reached my destination, I am moving forward and somewhere along the way change will come! I must not wait for change to come before I move forward it is moving forward that change comes along the way.